Metamorphosis, The Transformation

Do appreciate life when all is going well for you.
Do appreciate the times when you get to laugh.
Even when you cry, it's not the end of the world.
Even a broken heart can be mended.
Even a wound can be healed.

Just got back to KL last night.
Flight was smooth, no turbulence, to my dismay.
I love turbulence, I really do.
It's like a never-ending rollercoaster ride.
And I especially enjoy the adrenaline rush.
Happy to see my parents. Very darn happy.
Loving the warm weather.
Loving my bed, my bathroom, my computer, my everything.

But maybe, my life is running out of good news somehow?

Visited the ENT specialist, Dr. Koay at Gleneagles this morning to check up on my swell.
Turns out...it's a stone.
A freaking stone.
How it got there, I'm not sure.
But...a stone???
Wait...am I not too young to get stones?
No, apparently.

And so...the gruelling ordeal begins today.
Eff me. My life is effing screwed up right now.
Mind you, I'm scared of needles. Terrifyingly scared of them!
But life wouldn't spare me just a little.

I've thought about it.
Maybe I've been a bad person.
Maybe I'm being punished?
Maybe I'm just unlucky?
Maybe life is just unfair?
Maybe everything happens for a reason?
Maybe...maybe...just maybe...

But...why me?
I've been a good person.
I don't backstab.
I don't sabotage.
I don't steal.
I don't sleep around.
I don't do anything I shouldn't do.
So, why me? Why?

Infact, I've done my part for charity.
I always do.
I help the homeless, I help the needy.
So, why me?

Sigh...isn't life so unpredictable?

The CT scan tomorrow will confirm everything.

And we're looking into performing an operation.
Once again, why me?

I'm not prepared to go through the pain.

Being a commerce student, I've been calculating the number of times I would have to be poked by stupid needles.
It all adds up to about four times minimum?
Goodness gracious.

I am gonna live through it all.
I will survive.

What it has taught me though.
Is that, when you're well and healthy, never take life for granted.
Enjoy yourself.
Make yourself happy.
Live life full.
Live your dreams.

God please be with me...