Unwell
Seems like the swell on my right jaw is getting worse. The lump in my salivary gland is expanding by the day, so big that it's spread down to my jaw. It's crazy nuts! The pain is getting more and more unbearable and I don't know what to do. I can't even swallow food now without feeling pain. It's a good thing that I can still laugh. Laughing is a huge part of me. It's also a good thing that it's not exactly interfering with my studies. Yet. Except, of course, I do sleep a little more than usual these days.
Sigh...I really don't know what to do. What to expect. I'm fearing the worst. But doctor said it's just that my saliva got trapped in the glands and stopped producing more. But how odd is that. Don't know why, but I can't seem to trust the doctors here. You tell them your symptoms, they type into the computer and the computer generates the results for them. And even when he's diagnosing you with the proper antibiotics, he refers to a book. Yes, he's nice and all that, but still, my heart is not at ease.
Did my research online and all that I see is websites suggesting that the symptoms are related to stones/tumours/what not. So scary that it put me off researching anymore.
At times like these, I wish I was back home in Malaysia. Need my mum's tender loving care. Dad to throw all my complaints at and who 'layans' my tears. Grandma to advise us on what to do and all. Ah...how I wish. Oh well...just another two weeks and home it is.
And which reminds me. Today is the 8th anniversary of my grandfather's passing. I miss him everyday. I used to be so attached to him and him leaving was a huge pain for me. Every time I see anybody's grandfather pick them up from school, I tear a little. Reminds me of how I shared that special bond with my Ye Ye. He's a special man and I don't understand why, but to me, it seems like I'm the only one missing him so much. Perhaps, I spent the most time with him among all the grandchildren? Nine of us, all in pairs except me, six of which are already married and doing well in their lives. The closest is one who's nine years older. Then the two younger ones. The closest is nine years younger. Which leaves me right smack in the middle. And being the only child, naturally I got all the attention. But yeah, he was a really really good man.
And btw, it's Ada Chee Chui Mei's 21st birthday today! Happy birthday sweetheart. I've known you since we were 13 and seems like just yesterday that we did our ERT projects together at your place. And how we'd car pool every Saturday mornings for our Taekwondo training. Our sleepovers, chatting until early in the mornings, and the panda eyes. Then also the baking and cooking together which usually ends up with you doing everything just because you had more experience and I had zero. Wait till you see me now! I can bake and cook ok??? I love you darling...
Ah, I feel better now after ranting so much. But the swell...let's just hope it goes away.
so sorry my birthday always reminds you of your grandfather's passing though=(
miss you darling.mmuaks!
i love you. and you show off your baking skills to me next time when you're back!hehehe (Comment this)
is the salivary gland that is swelling behind your jaw near the ear? or the ones below the jaw?
behind the jaw could be mumps la, meaning infection at the parotid glands.
what's the signs and symptoms?
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