Days like these
Some days I wake up feeling so joyful, I even make the effort to recall my dreams. Other days, I feel like total crap! All I wanna do is sleep the day away and not have to wake up at all.
Today was one of those days.
I planned to wake up at 8.15 to go to the market and then rush off for my 10 am class after that. And since I'm down with a terrible case of flu and cough, it took triple the effort to even open my eyes. Upon realising that it was raining heavily outside, I dozed off again. Damn bleh. I hate the weather. It's 10 degrees at noon and that's so unfair! We didn't even see it coming! Just last week, it was still rather warm. How can the weather do this to me, especially now that I'm sick.
And just a few seconds ago, I had a sneezing fit. Brrrr...
It feels exceptionally cold here. Thanks to the stupid glass windows.
I don't like!
Anyway, days like these, I just feel like crap and I can go on ranting and ranting about how terrible I'm feeling. I don't know what I want. There are things in my past I'd like to forget. People who used to matter most have now an insignificant role but why can't I just forget them totally? I want to get on with life but yet they come back to haunt me. I want to let go, but it seems impossible. What is wrong with this world? Why can't it be happy for me? Forgetting seems like a feat only possible in my dreams. Forgiving is easier said than done. Letting go would just take that extra effort.
Well well, gotta work on it I guess?
But anyhow, I've caught the baking bug. Just searched online for dozens of recipes for brownies and cookies. Ah can't wait till I finally get to bake them. Just made tiramisu yesterday, and garlic bread today. Haha...it'd be brownies tomorrow perhaps? The fact that my friends appreciate them just makes it all worth it =)
My friends have been commenting that I have a major case of OCD. I know it's really bad 'cos I can't take it when my house is messy, dirty or wet. And I can spot spelling/grammar errors almost instantly. Like how most people always spell "tomorrow" with double Ms as "tommorrow". Or how they can't differentiate the use of "advise" and "advice" or "practice" vs "practise". Also when they don't know when to use "has", "have" or "had". It just gets to me! I know it shouldn't but it does! And it's nobody's fault but my own.
One can totally tell how crappy I'm feeling just by reading this post. Please do not be offended and emo silently with me! I'm not even directing it at anyone!
One more thing, I love it when my friends are honest with me. Sometimes, I make mistakes without even realising them. I'd rather they confront me about the problem than keep them at heart and misunderstand me forever.
The boyfriend's birthday is coming up and I am so excited bout it! Wheeee...
Update on the stupid apartment glass: The lousy agent promised to get back to me but he didn't. Bet he was just lying when he said the glass will be fixed asap. He prolly lied to get himself out of trouble in fear that we'd complain to the owner of the apartment. Tmr, we're gonna go down to the office and screw him kau-kau. I've been way too patient and I can't take it anymore. Bumped into him in the lift today and he acted as though he didn't know me. Wth. Some inefficient people just want to runaway as far as they can. Thing is, I was nice enough to not mention the agent in my post yesterday, but today, that just did it for me. I may be trying to be a better person now, but that doesn't mean I'll let them bully me. Haha...see who gets the last laugh tmr. Fire your bum bum upside down!
