Metamorphosis, The Transformation

Hey peeps,

I'm back from Torquay! And it was super awesome! Great place, great company, and great experience all in all. All thanks to the perfect planning made by Jack and Cheryl. Super good organisers they are!

There were 13 of us and we rented a house. The house was big enough to fit 15 people. And it's really nice and big. I especially loved the bathroom, with its jacuzzi and nice deco. Such homey feeling.

Pics will be uploaded soon. I'm currently facing problems resizing them.

Four days till we move into Verve. I'm so excited that I can't even contain it inside anymore! Will take loads of pics of my new place. Wheee...

Love.

Yup, that's my bf. He can be quite gay at times.

From L-R: Gerald, Yenny, Jason.

Sorry couldn't find a better picture to place here. And the first picture has to traumatise you guys.

Happy holidays everyone! =)

I'm all ready for Torquay!

The packing's all done now. Imagine having to stuff three days worth of stuffs into one mini hand carry luggage. That sucks right? Well, think again. Due to space constraint in the cars thanks to the overloaded amount of food we bought to bring over for the bbq and steamboat sessions, each couple was limited to ONE LUGGAGE ONLY. Bleh.

That said, I had to forgo the many outfits that I had planned earlier and settled instead for my baby tees. Ok ok, not so bad afterall. I mean, it's still a surf beach and most of the time, nobody gives a damn what you're wearing. So, perfecto!

I'm super excited bout the trip now. And btw, we're going with the bf's friends from Trinity.

Today, Cheryl drove us to Boxhill in her nice new car to get the steamboat ingredients. I've now truly realised the many wonders of owning a car in Melbourne. Never thought I needed it but now I think I do. We could buy as much groceries as we wanted without worrying about lugging them back all the way home. Now I feel like I NEED a car. I wouldn't mind my parents selling my car back home and getting me one here. Like totally!

Visited a pet shop near Vic market today. Goodness, the dogs in Australia look cuter for some reason. Good genes perhaps? Is that why even Caucasians look better? Wow...never knew that even in terms of dogs, Caucasian ones would beat Asians flat. This is so not fair!

And so, now, I am dyinggggg to get a puppy! And the bf has promised me one! Preferably the teddy bear look-alike maltese cross poodle I fell in love with today. *strong HINT* I'll name him BenB just because all our other babies' names start with B.

Wheeee...only problem is...how do we get permission to rear pets in our new apartment when it's stated clearly in our contract that pets are not allowed. This is why renting an apartment sucks! Therefore, I need to buy my own apartment! Right. Like that's even possible.

In conclusion, I've realised THREE new needs in just ONE day.

1) Car
2) Puppy
3) Apartment

If only I was a millionaire.

The holidays have officially begun! And I'm so so happy to finally get a break from uni. If you haven't heard already, third year is such a pain. So much work to do! Yet, I still find myself procrastinating and not finishing my work on time. And only tutes which give out participation marks get my time. Oh no...I'm turning into such a slack. Compared to my besties who are doing medicine, 12 hours of uni per week is not even a fraction of their one single day. Goodness. Us commerce people are damn spoilt! And I just learnt that the longest holiday they ever get a year is one month. Can so die!

Well, hopefully my laziness will disappear after the break. Which reminds me, I have to start with my job applications. Some of my friends have even scored themselves interviews already. How proud I am of them! See? I hang out with smart people ok? LOL...

Anyway, this is gonna be a busy week ahead for me. First, have to get my tute work done and the Investments assignment too. Cos we won't have time once uni starts thanks to all the moving. Then we'll have to start packing up the furnitures and put the random stuffs into boxes. And Wednesday to Friday, we'll be off to Torquay Beach with our friends! Woohoo! I so can't wait!

As for now, I shall just sit back and relax. We've been going out too much for the past few days and so today's rule is to stay home and chillex. Bleh. But the weather has to be so nice just when we decide to stay home. Haha!

Gtg...the bf's demanding my attention. Happy Easter! Happy Holidays!

Some people are just not worth my time.

Try hard as I did, yet they don't appreciate the effort. So, why bother?

It's fine by me. I can live without people like these.

And don't hide anything from me. I'm bound to hear the truth anyway.

Go on excluding me from your life please.

Emo bleh.

Time to surround myself with truthful people.

No more lies.

A few random facts:

1) The weather has taken a turn for the better. Love it love it love it! It's no longer 35 degrees and above. Instead, it's drastically dropped to 21.2 degrees. I know, there're better things to talk about than the weather right? But for now, bye bye to short pants, summer dresses and sunburns!

2) I'm getting really bored of facebook these days. I have no idea why. I guess too much of a good thing is bad. Bleh. And I also realised that this blog.com thingy isn't really working very well. It gets jammed up and a couple of friends have complained about it being difficult to access. But please bear with it. I'm sick of xanga. And I have no idea how in the world to use blogger. I find blog.com really user-friendly so I shall stick with it. Hehe...

3) I can't wait to move to our new place. All my stuffs are still packed up in the boxes. And I'm totally living off my suitcase. I don't even have enough clothes to last me that long. And that has resulted in me shopping excessively. It's like, everyday I shop for my clothes for the next day. Damn bleh. No money!

4) I can't even frigging find my nail polish remover to remove the stupid chipped-off polish on my fingers. Arrgh! And that has resulted in me scraping them off and thus damaging my nails and cuticles at the very same time. I tell you, I hate living like this.

5) I feel so bored in Melbourne sometimes. Especially when the bf leaves for football and I'm all alone at home. Wish I could get a pet. A cat perhaps? Or a beagle! Yes, I totally want a beagle. Damn cute don't you think? And they're frigging greedy. Which I like alot! I love greedy dogs! Wheee...just because I can teach them tricks really easily. Used to have two dogs. A poodle and a shih tzu. Coco the Poodle was too temperamental But damn damn cute and I miss her damn much now. She reminds me of a little human. Bobo the Shih Tzu was super hamsap. Hahaha!

6) This is the last week of uni before it closes for the easter break. I'm soooo excited! Initial plan was to go over to Brisbane to visit Lydia dear. But plan got screwed last minute as I have to move house. Bleh. So sad. But I'm gonna make it happen some way, somehow. Maybe skip a couple days of classes. Haha!

7) The bf got me this quite big, damn cute easter bunny Lindt chocolate. It's sooooo cute! Everyday I look at it and get so tempted to rip the wrapper off and just eat it. But it's damn adorable. Cannot touch! I even cried one time when he threatened to eat the bunny. Bleh. Emo kid. Now we're just treating it as one of our kids. Haha...and named her Bunny. How original.

8) I have to cook dinner tonight and have absolutely no idea on what to cook at all. Hmmmm...

9) That chocolate bunny is making me super hungry right now. Damn. I totally need chocolates.

10) Is "damn" considered a bad word? I know I promised to stop cursing. And it's been successful so far!

Guess that's it for now! =)

Oh thank goodness. I'm super relieved now.

Finally, the uncertainty is over.

Finally, the stress is over.

Finally, the feeling of homeless-ness ends.

I am so happy to say that...we've eventually found the right place!

Though it's on the pricey side, at least we don't have to worry about being nomads anymore. Not to say there wasn't drama involved, but at least now I know I won't have any excuse of failing my third year.

So, we start moving on the 2nd of April. Would anyone like to render some help? *hint hint*

Till then, I'll finally be attending my lectures and will start paying attention at tutes. No more phone calls from agents halfway through a tutorial. No more worries about the applications. And best of all, we don't have to go through the hassle of the applications! It's hard work, I tell you. They require so many documents, it's crazy and it's hell!

And now, I've finally learnt to appreciate the comfort of home. The comfort of having my parents prepare everything for me. From food to accommodation to studies and everything. Gosh...I miss my dad and mum =(

I've never had to worry about anything other than exams a single day in my life until the day I came to Melbourne.

My life's been cut short by five years I think! Bleh.

So yeah, that's it! I'm just superrrr happy today!

It dawned on me that, in a year, I might not even be in Melbourne anymore. Who knows where the future would bring me. Perhaps Sydney, Perth, Singapore, KL? I dunno. And all I know is, I'm gonna indulge in some Melbourne-loving from now on. I promise myself to explore all there is to explore on this sacred land.

I love Melbourne:
1) For its erratic weather. When it's hot, I wish for cold. When it's cold, I wish for hot. It just shows how fickle I am.
2) For its seasonal fruits. Currently, I believe it's the season for grapes and sultanas? They're so sweet and best part is, they're seedless! I also love it when it's the strawberries and mango season.
3) 'Cos it's where my favourite church is! Planetshakers City Church! How awesome!
4) 'Cos I met the nicest friends here in my entire lifetime.
5) For the fact that everybody dresses to kill.
6) For the shopping. Yes, no doubt, the shopping.
7) For the fact that it turns people into materialistic junkies. Haha!
8) Simply because I spent 1/7 of my life here! Who knows, could be more =)

So the trip to Clayton was seriously a fun-filled one (albeit super tiring). The ex-cobains' new place is super beautiful. Love it love it love it! It's so homey and white! Just the way I like it! I'm so jealous of the amount of bathrooms and toilets that they have. Goodness! So unfair that all we get in the city is a max of 2 baths. Bleh.

Played mafia late into the night. Or morning, rather. Then we slept only around 5plus (some of them even went to bed only around 7.30). But it was all good. I had a great time everyone! And hence, I'm super sleepy right now.

The message spoken by Ps Russell Evans at church today was superb! It was like, everything was a direct hit at me. I do realise that I haven't been a proper ambassador of God. And so...

I shall not curse anymore.
I must totally control my temper.
I must not let my anger control me, and instead I will control the anger.
I must stop judging people.
I must not gossip about others.
I shall never speak ill of others.
I must smile more and be friendlier.
I must be nice to everyone.
I will get rid of any envy or jealousy that I feel towards others.
I must not be late to church.

Ok...my list made me sound like a total bad person. But, that's just my current resolution. And yes, I can do all that for sure!

It's so hot today. Gosh! And it's even hotter in the suburbs. We walked so much under the scorching heat that I'm now 3 shades darker. Not that I mind of course. A tan is lovely! Haha!

So today, when I signed in to MSN and was browsing through my list of contacts (to see who I could kacau at 10.30am in the morning), I noticed one thing that almost everyone on my list had in common. Emo messages. Is this like the season to be emo or something? Bleh. I blame the stupid weather for that.

Yesterday, the temperature reached a high of 40 "darjah celcius". So in the morning, I was supposed to be at uni for some dance class trial. Halfway to uni, I decided to turn back 'cos it was too darn hot to continue walking. And also 'cos I realised that I didn't have a freaking partner to ballroom dance with! Stupid bf ffk me for his beauty sleep.

Then in the evening, we were supposed to view an apartment at QV1 and since it was so blardy hot, cleverly, I put on my bright blue/white striped short pants and a singlet top, like totally dressed down okay! While walking to the tram stop, I remember thinking to myself that I was so clever to wear shorts cos even then I was sweating!

And so we stayed in QV for around one hour. And when we walked out. Blah! I swear the temperature dropped at least 15 degrees. It's crazy! The strong winds and everything. I could have just died in my mini pants. Yeah, punishment for laughing silently at those passersby who were dressed in jeans earlier. So...they were the clever ones hah!

Anyway, back to the MSN message. So, another thing that I noticed on everyone's display message was, "Happy 21st Birthday Siu Siu!". Ok, not everyone, but just most of the Clayton people on my list. Haha...So, I decided to take it up one notch further. I shall wish Siu Siu on my blog! So here goes:

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY SIU SIU DARLING!

And what better gift can I get you than to go down to Clayton myself and give you a big fat wet kiss right? Ok, maybe that would totally freak you out. Besides, we haven't really gotten to know each other that well yet. But in time, we will ok? Haha...

So, I'll be leaving the city in like half-an-hour and will be staying the night in Clayton. I am totally excited about that ok? I know I sound "jakun" but I've never really left the city much so...this is pretty much like an adventure. So stop laughing!

Also, please please please say your prayers for Yen Jun, Yen Shan and me. We're still scouting around for the perfect apartment. Hopefully we can get one that's nice and cheap! Although that would be utterly impossible considering the sky high inflation in Australia currently. And the stupid property boom. Damn bleh, if you ask me. Malaysians are at a total disadvantage. The blardy currency is almost 3 to 1 now. And rental prices are increasing. And food and groceries and everything else along with that. How to survive, you tell me?

So off I go. Gotta pack up the nail polish for girls' nite tonight, alco for the guys, and clothes for the stayover! Wheeeee...I don't care if I sound like a "jakun". Hahaha!

So, my first entry. Wheee...let's celebrate! 2008 is a big year for me. It marks my final year at uni. Also my big 21st which is about seven months away. The year where I'll receive my key to life. And also the year whereby I stop growing any taller. Yes, a very big year indeed.

Around this time next year, I'll be out in the workforce. And right now, I can't picture my life as a labour. Perhaps I'm just not ready (P.s. I'm not lazy alright?). Or could I be running away from that reality? All my life, I've dreamt of becoming a bigshot career woman. With all the money and luxury in the world, and having the world at my fingertips. Snap, and I get the latest Chanel bag delivered to my hands by my personal butler. Snap again, and I'm at the Hollywood premiere of the latest George Clooney movie. Snap another time, and I'm the special guest at some major runway event. Dreams being dreams, they ought to be big. So, please don't mind me.

The honest truth is, I've only really wanted to be a journalist, writing columns and articles for female magazines, etc. And I have no idea what I'm doing here in Melbourne Uni studying a course which I don't even freaking understand. Since I was 14, I had my mind set on going into writing. And then I ended up in science (just because everyone else was doing it). My life plans were all ruined. I hated Bio, Chem, Physics. And then in the final year at school, I told myself I'd stop flunking my sciences. And so I managed to scrape through SPM satisfactorily with 8As2Bs. It's shit if you compare it with my geniuses for friends who take like at least 11 subjects or something and still manage to get straight As.

Pre-u was the year where everything started off well and ended well. And then it came to uni. And bleh, I chose commerce. Why I did that, I have no idea. Sometimes I think I'm the one who's really responsible for screwing up my own life. But then again, commerce people are the ones earning the big bucks these days.

So...should I choose money over my own interests?

I've been pondering. There are three things that I could do after I graduate:
1) Get a freaking job and slave for a company that doesn't give two hoots about their employee's welfare.
2) Get my MBA (only as a last resort).
3) Enrol into the course of my dreams (journalism). And lately, I've been showing some interests in architecture. But nah-ah, that course would be too time-consuming and by the time I graduate, my friends will all be happily married and I would've been a bridesmaid more than three times and my biological clock would probably screw me over.

So there goes. My whole life plan all mapped out. Which, by the way, doesn't exactly work out to be quite a good plan.

Why is it that everyone (all my friends) is so clear about what they want to do in the future and I am not. Wait, I just realised that I started this post sounding very convinced that I was gonna go into the workforce next year. Nope, I shall not delete that. This just shows how aimless and directionless I am. Somebody help me!

Ok, so I have an idea. It's been buried right beneath my brain cells for a long time. So...what if...just theoretically speaking, what if, I could just get a job at a bank (it has to be an MNC), and then write for Female magazine freelance? Wouldn't that be so awesome? That way, I can kill two birds with one stone. And earn even more than I could potentially earn as a fresh grad. Then again, who's gonna hire a freelance writer who has no experience or credibility to her name and whose writing is only so-so. Bleh. Life sucks, I know!

Ok, I didn't mean for my first post to be this long. But...blogging is just like speaking to yoursef, don't you think? It's like, I'm penning down my every single thought right at this moment. Wouldn't it be great when I look back at this blog 20 years from now and think, "Wow...was I ever this childish?", or "Back then, I wouldn't have thought that I'd be a billionaire at 40". Goodness gracious. That's me speaking to myself. You know. Overly ambitious me.

And just for the record, yes, I do think stupid thoughts in my mind, all day, everyday. And this is probably only a mini fraction of the nonsense that I think daily. So please...I shall spare you.

Btw, I want to get married young. As in, by 27 'cos 28 sounds damn old. No offence to all you over-28s. That's just my opinion. So, that means, if all goes well, I'll be married in seven years! And first child by 29 please. I want three children so I'll be a sow by the time I turn 35. Extra saggy stretched skin which I'd definitely not appreciate but then again, there's always slimming centres and erm...cough...liposuction?

I've been thinking. Maybe I should end my posts like Gossip Girl. Haha...and just for this post, I shall do it ok? Or if I ever feel like doing it again? Ah...shameful shameful.

You know you love me, XOXO,

Gossip Girl