Metamorphosis, The Transformation

Tonight must be one of the worst nights ever.
I've never been in such a foul mood.
Every little thing gets me so upset.

Thank goodness for feel-good songs.

A few songs which I particularly love when I'm down are:

1) Blue - All Rise
2) Blue - If You Come Back
3) Vanessa Amorosi - Shine (This has always been my number 1 feel-good song although it holds no special meaning)
4) Vanessa Amorosi - Everytime I Close My Eyes
5) KT Tunstall - Suddenly I See
6) Gabriella Cilmi - Sweet About Me
7) Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
8) Savage Garden - Affirmation

Been listening to them all night.
Song #4 makes me cry.
Song #3 will then cheer me up.
Song #5 helps me make sense of everything.
Song #7 makes me emo all over again.
Song #1 brings back great memories.
Song #2 gets me thinking.
Song #8 usually makes me happy.

Tell me again, why am I so vulnerable to the things people say and do.
Why should they affect me at all?
At the end of the day, this is my life I'm living.
And I should be living my life for me.

I tell myself time and again to not get pushed over.
I keep reminding myself to stop hiding everything inside.
Yet, each time when I'm faced with the similar circumstances, I can't seem to open my mouth.
And the whole vicious cycle repeats itself.

You can give your life or
You can lose your soul
You can bang your head
Or you can drown in a hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to Shine
- my favourite meaningless song, Shine




I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love 'til you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity
- this song speaks my thoughts, Affirmation

If I could have one wish, it'd be to get a good night's rest.
For once! Just once.
It's a known fact that when I don't get sufficient sleep, I get very cranky.
And very moody.
And c'mon, to think that my sleep has been sabotaged.
I'm in a terrible mood right now.
Whole day in uni, I felt as though I was floating.
Even the caffeine boost which I got from the so-called "Vitamin Water" did not help.
Feck it, all I need is sleep.
And even my nap had to be cut short because...

Ish!

Even Brinjal can't cheer me up this time =(