Metamorphosis, The Transformation

After a good two years of having short hair, I’ve decided in the past month to ignore the temptation to trim it every two months.
Especially ever since getting the ghd styler, I realised that short hair equals zero fun.
Can’t do those Taylor Swift curls, or sexy elegant big curls.
How boring has my past two years been?
It’s gotten to a point where I look at my friends’ hair with envy.
Wishing and wishing that I never grew so fond of chopping the hair.
And I think the hair hates me.
I think it’s only grown an inch longer in the past month!
How can???

Could someone recommend me any steroids to accelerate the hair’s growth?
I kid you.

There’s this someone in this world who can seriously get on my nerves with her stupid antics.
Things she does, I totally loathe.
Like seriously, go get a life, and by that, I don’t mean try to steal from others.
Whatever is mine remains mine.
Sorry!
I’m wasting my time hating these people.
Just make it easier for me, would you?
Break your leg, or neck, or arm or something.
It’ll honestly make me very happy.
I’m so mean I know!
And I love it! <3

I gotta start on my assignment!
Like seriously!
I’ve been putting it off for two weeks already!
I cannot believe this.
The major procrastinator that I am.

Brinjal is growing into a very very beautiful white rabbit.
She’s like the most adorable baby ever!
And she’s responding to both her daddy and mummy now.
I think she’s gonna be the smartest rabbit in the world.
Just because I’m her mummy =)

Today has been crazy, seriously!

I woke up at 8.45 a.m. and the sun was burning.
And because I left the blinds un-shut overnight, I got an effing sunburn on one side of my face!
Then, just as I was about to leave the house for class at 9.50 a.m., it started drizzling.
When I got down to the ground floor, it was already pouring.
Got up the tram, headed to uni, and outside, it was still raining.
Got down the tram, and walked under the heavy drops of water from the skies.
Effing gloomy skies just about made my day turn sour.
But when I got out of class, it was effing hot, so I got rid of my jacket.
So, happy day beckons?
NONONO!
Just as I was walking to the union house, the cold wind decided to strike.
OMG seriously, just leave me alone already will you!

Then the sun and the rain took turns to piss me off and make my day even more miserable.
Then a terrible bout of stomachache had to join in the fun in making this a terribly lousy day for me.
ISH!

I officially have a love-hate relationship with Melbourne’s weather now.

And to think this is the last Monday of uni.
Thank god!
I hate Mondays.
I effing hate Mondays.
I’m so not cut out to like Mondays.
And yet, I was born on a freaking Monday.

Geram betul!

And the bf is so darn sick now.
That poor thing got food poisoning and vomited at least 5 kgs over the weekend.
Poor thing.
=(
*hugs and kisses*

To my dear best friend of nine years,

Happy 21st birthday to you!

It’s hard to believe that nine years flew past us just like that.
You’ve taught me so much.
You made high school life much more meaningful for me.
We did everything together.
School, tuition, taekwondo, co-op, Leo.
It’s a wonder how we could talk about everything!
And how our conversations never ended even when we were apart.
And the same class year after year after year???

We were never alone in each other’s company.
Everywhere I went, you were with me.
Everywhere you went, I was with you.
We could read each other’s minds, as though we were sisters!
It got to a point where people thought we were twins!
And it’s funny how teachers used to get us mixed up.

You know, you filled that gap in my life where loneliness would otherwise reside.
You made my days much more complete, just by being around.
You were my outlet of all things, I told you everything and you did the same.
My joy always doubled when I shared them with you.
My sorrow always depleted because you always made me feel better.
We laughed together, we cried together, we did everything together.

Even now when we’re miles apart, a simple conversation, be it MSN or Skype still means the world to me.
It’s amazing how we can pick things up where we left off despite the distance and absence.
Because in me, you are always the same person, my best friend.
Many things may have come between us, many people may have entered our lives, but bear in mind, that no one can take the place of you in my heart.
For the things we’ve shared in our lifetimes are forever worthy.
You made a change in my life.
And you left your mark in me.

So, forever, wherever you go, wherever I am, I will always think of you,
And I will always remember you, my best friend.
And you know, whatever you do, you know that I’ll be behind you.
You have my full support!

What a fine, young lady you are now.
I just want you to know that I’m very proud of you!

Hope you have a good 21st birthday, Dr. Ivy Kow!
I know your friends over there will make it one to remember.
And we’ll meet again in January!
We’ll have our celebration then!

Love you always,
Your best friend =)

Staring out at the moon on a warm Saturday night.
Got me thinking of a lot of things.
Of all those times where I never told my loved ones that I love them.
Those times where I took them for granted.
Where I took for granted that my time with them is forever.

I’m currently reading a book, “One hour to live, one hour to love”, by Richard Carlson and Kristine Carlson.
It’s one of those books which puts things into perspective and make you reflect on your whole life.
It was originally a book dad got for mum, and I happened to run out of books to read, so I brought it back to Melbourne.

There’s so much I can say about this book.
About how it changed my perspective of love, of life.
It made me realise how short life really is.
And it made me realise that a lot of things in this world, mostly material, are not important.
Achievements in your life are not brought to your grave with you.
Your medals and trophies are merely worldly things.
Your money and material things are only used on earth and nowhere beyond.
What lasts forever is the legacy you leave behind.

It is what you have given that the world remembers you for.
It is how you made people feel that they will remember you for.
It is the times you have encouraged them that they will never forget.
It is the joy that you have brought into the lives of those around you that will be remembered.
It is the love you have shown to those around you that will be felt beyond your living.
It is the person that you are that you will be remembered for.

And here, I share with you my favourite poem of all time.
First time I read it was in one of the Chicken Soup series when I was 14.
I used to be able to recite it by heart.

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me
by David E. Romano

When tomorrow starts without me,
      and I’m not there to see;
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
      all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn’t cry
      the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things
      we didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me,
      as much as I love you,
And each time you think of me,
      I know you’ll miss me, too.
But when tomorrow starts without me,
      please try and understand,
That an angel came and called my name
      and took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready
      in heaven far above,
And that I’d have to leave behind
      all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
      a tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I’d always thought
      I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for
      and so much yet to do,
It seemed almost impossible
      that I am leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
      the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared
      and all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
      I thought, just for a while,
I’d say good-bye and kiss you
      and maybe see your smile.
But then I fully realized
      that this could never be.
For emptiness and memories
      would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things
      that I’d miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
      my heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven’s gates,
      I felt so much at home.
When God look down and smiled at me,
      from His great golden throne.
He said, “This is eternity
      and all I’ve promised you,
Today your life on earth is past,
      but here it starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
      but today will always last,
And since each day’s the same day,
      there’s no longing for the past.
But you have been so faithful,
      so trusting and so true,
Though there were times you did some things
      you knew you shouldn’t do.
But you have been forgiven,
      and now at last you’re free.
So won’t you take my hand
      and share my life with me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me,
      don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me,
      I’m right here in your heart.

Isn’t that such a fantastic poem?
I love it to bits and to say it made me appreciate my parents more would be an understatement.
All my life, I’ve always made it a point to be a good child.
To never take them for granted.
There is never a day that goes by that I don’t tell my mum I love her.
But, right, it’s weird telling my dad that I love him.
But of course I do love him!
I love my parents right to the core of my heart.
Ever since the day my parents left Melbourne when I first arrived, there is never a day that I don’t talk to them.
Everyday, there will be at least three phone calls.
And I do appreciate the fact that they make the effort to keep-in-touch.
And of course, it’s a tradition that I’ll always keep to.
Who ever say long-distance relationships were easy? =P

Another poem that was featured in the book I’m currently reading.

If Tomorrow Never Comes
by Norma Cornett Marek

If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly, and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I’d see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss, and call you back for just one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would tape each word and action, and play them back throughout my days
If I knew it would be the last time, I would spare an extra minute or two,
To stop and say “I love you,” instead of assuming you know I do.

So just in case tomorrow never comes, and today is all I get,
I’d like to say how much I love you, and I hope we never will forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day
That you didn’t take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today, and whisper in their ear,
That you love them very much, and you’ll always hold them dear.
Take time to say “I’m sorry,” “Please forgive me,” “thank you” or “it’s okay”.
And if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets about today.

How so very beautiful is that?

Do appreciate the people around you.
For you never know when the day would come where you’re told you have an hour to live.

And if you were told you have an hour to live,
What would you want to do in that last one hour?
Who would you want by your side?
Would you have told the people you love that you love them in your lifetime?
Would you have any regrets about living your life the way you lived it?
Would you still look at your current problems as though they are really that big?

Honestly, the issues that are bugging me right now.
Ten years from now, I’d look back and say, “Why did they even bother me then?”
And so, the weight on my shoulders has been lifted now.
And I feel like I’m free to love.
And you, yes I love you!

Whoever you are, thanks for reading! =)

Woah, this is like one of the most heartfelt posts I’ve ever written in a long long time!

Tonight must be one of the worst nights ever.
I’ve never been in such a foul mood.
Every little thing gets me so upset.

Thank goodness for feel-good songs.

A few songs which I particularly love when I’m down are:

1) Blue - All Rise
2) Blue - If You Come Back
3) Vanessa Amorosi - Shine (This has always been my number 1 feel-good song although it holds no special meaning)
4) Vanessa Amorosi - Everytime I Close My Eyes
5) KT Tunstall - Suddenly I See
6) Gabriella Cilmi - Sweet About Me
7) Simply Red - You Make Me Feel Brand New
Savage Garden - Affirmation

Been listening to them all night.
Song #4 makes me cry.
Song #3 will then cheer me up.
Song #5 helps me make sense of everything.
Song #7 makes me emo all over again.
Song #1 brings back great memories.
Song #2 gets me thinking.
Song #8 usually makes me happy.

Tell me again, why am I so vulnerable to the things people say and do.
Why should they affect me at all?
At the end of the day, this is my life I’m living.
And I should be living my life for me.

I tell myself time and again to not get pushed over.
I keep reminding myself to stop hiding everything inside.
Yet, each time when I’m faced with the similar circumstances, I can’t seem to open my mouth.
And the whole vicious cycle repeats itself.

You can give your life or
You can lose your soul
You can bang your head
Or you can drown in a hole
Nothing lasts forever
But you can try
Look around you
Everyone you see
Everyone you know
Is going to Shine
- my favourite meaningless song, Shine

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people’s hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it’s bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I’m loved when I’m completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can’t appreciate real love ’til you’ve been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until you say goodbye

I believe you can’t control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse tv evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity
- this song speaks my thoughts, Affirmation

If I could have one wish, it’d be to get a good night’s rest.
For once! Just once.
It’s a known fact that when I don’t get sufficient sleep, I get very cranky.
And very moody.
And c’mon, to think that my sleep has been sabotaged.
I’m in a terrible mood right now.
Whole day in uni, I felt as though I was floating.
Even the caffeine boost which I got from the so-called “Vitamin Water” did not help.
Feck it, all I need is sleep.
And even my nap had to be cut short because…

Ish!

Even Brinjal can’t cheer me up this time =(

No wonder Forever 21 is my favourite clothing line.
It all makes perfect sense now.
I don’t wanna grow up.
And beyond 21 is just…unacceptable.
I am age-ing, and time is just flying past me at 10,000 miles per hour.

My 21st birthday has got to be my most awesome-est birthday ever.
The best I’ve ever had, and I’m believing that nothing could ever beat that.
It’s like an endless three weeks long celebration.
How could anyone ever forget something like that?
Plus, the surprise from my beloved bf and friends.

Remember how when we were younger, we wanted our birthday cakes to have the amount of candles equivalent to our age?
Now that I’m 21, I still want that amount of candles on my birthday cake!
I’m a kid forever ok!
Being an only child, I used to be super lonely.
And to cheer me up, my parents used to buy me cakes randomly just for fun since I loved blowing the candles out.
Hahaha…
I used to tell people that it was my secret to growing taller.
Come to think of it now, it’s absolutely absurd!

Well, I’d like to thank everybody for making this birthday such a very special one for me.
I’ll never ever ever forget it!
Thanks for the wishes, be it personal, or through calls, sms-es, FB msg-es.
You made a difference! =)
Thanks for the wonderful presents!
All such beautiful, perfect gifts!
You all made me such a happy girl!

And specially to the bf for planning everything to perfection.
For all the amazing gifts from you.
The necklace, cupcakes, cupcake book, Audrey Hepburn movie DVDs (and also for watching them with me! You’re the best baby!), and one more very special present (below)

Eddie & Leen for executing his plans. And Leen for her perfect pasta at my birthday party.

Cheryl for the Superheroes party.

Jack & Cheryl

Pang How & Mei Jing

Jason & Kim

They all look so cool don’t they? Hahaha…

Mayn for the yummy ice-cream cake!

Ai Ling for the delicious fried rice =)
*oops don’t have your pic babe*

So, all in all, I had three super great birthday parties this year!

One in Malaysia (26/09)

One at Cheryl’s place (04/10) - the Superheroes party

I was dressed as Superwoman. That very much explains the pink cape, pink underwear *ahem*
Please, I had another one underneath ok?

And my very own MISMATCHED party (11/10) - thanks for coming everyone!

Ally, Calbert, Serena, Sally, Marie, Elaine, Jian, Shaun

Ally, Mr. Yeff WTF, Mayn

Keith, Gerald, Nicko

Don’t laugh at me. The theme was “Mismatched” yo!

Leen, Rainbow, Valerie, Chi
Brinjal decided to join in the fun too! =)

Hao Ern, Leen, Sarah (who’s getting a puppy next week woohoooo!)

Rainbow, Leen, aShaunTee

Serena, Jian, Calbert, Me!

Faye (who’s getting a puppy too! Sarah’s puppy’s brother), Jern, Leen

Calbert, Elaine, Valerie

And of course, the wonderful surprise on my birthday, 5th October! Thanks guys! You’re all such wonderful friends. Me love you heaps!
*oops, no pictures cos I wasn’t expecting it and so, did not charge my camera battery*

The highlight of my birthday this year, is of course, my new little baby Brinjal Burberry!
Thank you bf!

Isn’t she like the cutest rabbit ever ever ever??? =)))
Love her to bits!
She’s the first thing I look forward to seeing every morning.
The last thing I have to cuddle before I sleep.
She’s in my dreams every night.
And I know her so well now.
What she likes, what she dislikes, her weird habits, her not-so-weird habits.
I feel like a mummy already.
And I let her sleep in my arms every night.
Cuddle her like a baby.
She’s like the fussiest rabbit ever.
And so pampered and spoilt!
But still, I love her so super much!
I feel like a fifth-grader writing like this.
But really, I’m so in love with my baby Brinjal that I can hardly type properly!

Ok that’s all folks.

Back to my baby Brinjal now!
Tata! <3

I’m home.
On a Friday night.
All because the bf’s down with flu.
And he made me promise to stay home to take care of him.
Gosh, he gets super manja when he’s sick.
He seeks attention whenever possible.
He says stupid things like he doesn’t have long to live.
All in an effort to make me pamper him, spoil him.

I’ve finally gotten over my homesick-ness.
All thanks to my wonderful girls, Leen and Mayn for getting me out of the house yesterday for some girly time out.
Lunch and shopping sure heals the homesick blues.
Thank you loves!

Mayn and Leen (had to steal the pic off their Facebook. Hehe!)

Omg…that is like the second ever photo I posted on this blog.
Not because I’ve been lazy, but because blog.com has only recently upgraded their services.
Now I can upload photos like nobody’s business! Yay!

This was taken on the 18th of September when the thirteen of us went for dinner at Dracula’s!
My second time there, and it was so much more fun ‘cos there were so many of us!
Good times!

Now, I’m searching for more random photos to upload.
Hehe!

Back in KL, at my birthday dinner, with the two gfs that I love sooooo much!
Ivy, you’re missing! =(

Thanks Mum and Dad for making it all happen!
And the gifts, I love so much!
My flight ticket, the Tag watch, the diamond w.g. necklace, the w.g. ring, the dinner.
Of course, the best gift ever is your love.
And thanks mummy for giving birth to me.
And for suffering the 9 months to give birth to me.
And for loving me unconditionally!
I had the best birthday ever and I have mum and dad to thank for it all!
Kisses!

The bf and I at Falls Creek early August.

The pretty lady’s birthday celebration (August 9th).
Time flies!
It’s been two months!

Cheryl’s birthday celebration at Koko (16th August)
From L-R: Mei Jing, Pris, Cheryl, Kim, Amanda

When the girls came to town.
From L-R: Michelle, Kathryn, Jasmine, Pris

My bf’s other half.

Mabel is in town.
From L-R: Mabel, Jamie, Pris, Michelle.
This picture is a direct shoutout to Ada Chee Chui Mei!
See what you’re missing! =P
Kidding la babes…we miss u!

To lock myself up in the room, alone, turn on my favourite emo song, “Bo Go Ship Da”

And cry and cry and cry.

Serious case of homesick-ness.
Perhaps it’s because the trip back home was such a fun-filled one.
I couldn’t get enough of everything.
And it was way too short.

Melbourne is miserable.
I hate it.
And I just don’t even feel like planning my birthday party.
Fuck it all.
And just cry and sleep.
Then wake up next Monday, a year older.
Just let it pass.

I hate this.