Metamorphosis, The Transformation

This blog has been giving me shitload of problems,
I have had to move once again.
But then again, I wonder who actually bothers reading my blog anymore so…haha…

Hello, nobody! =)

And if anyone at all is interested to know,
you can now find me at… *click*

Thank you blog.com.

I love you, but just not enough.

All thanks to your bratty behaviour, and for always failing me.

I. am. confused.

Shit happens to me all the time.

Fcking hate making decisions.
Fcking hate all these crap thrown in my direction.

This is here, this is me, my life cut short by worries and shit.

Merry Christmas everyone!

Every uni student’s worst nightmare is receiving the results, or maybe I should only speak for myself.
The results reflecting their endless labour,
their months of hard work,
the struggles which involved waking up early every morning to attend classes,
the struggle in getting the groove and discipline to complete their work,
the stress they go through during SWOT vac,
all the while slaving at the library,
sometimes even till 3 a.m.

Right now, all I’m hoping for is the best.
I know I’ve done my part by studying hard (fine, maybe not smart, but hard, definitely!).
And I hope that my results will reflect that.
And for once, please let me make my parents proud?

I don’t care if I’m not cut out to do commerce.
Maybe I’m not meant to understand finance, the way markets work, or even the principles involved in each financial instrument.
Maybe as hard as I try, my brain just won’t digest the formulas.
Maybe it refuses to remember how calculations are done.
But just like training a puppy, I’ve learned to train my brain to work in my favour.
And hopefully, it pays off.

Omg omg omg…
I’m sooooooooooooooooo nervous.
Have you ever been so nervous that you get butterflies in your stomach and keep going to the toilet.
Why did I ever torture myself in the first place by enrolling myself in this course?
Who ever said that commerce was easy?
Stupid fella obviously has never done it before.
Ish!

I find comfort in knowing that I’m not alone.
That I’m not the only one going through this.

I’m so scared. Terrified. Nervous. Worried.
Don’t know if I could get some shut eye tonight.

I’m not asking for much.
All I want is four passes.
I don’t need no distinctions, nor credits.
Just passes.

Pleaseeeeee……..

I’m not prepared for what’s coming ahead.
Not prepared to leave uni and enter the workforce.
I dunno how I’m gonna handle my own finances judging by the way I handle mine even now.
It’s gonna be hard learning to be independent and live out on my own.
Scary!

I’ve always wondered how come time passes so fast now that I’m older.
When I was still in school, it felt like time was always creeping by so slowly.
Is it that when we’re younger, time was bigger than us?
And now that we’re old enough, we feel as though we’re bigger than time.
Not sure if it makes sense, but yeah…

So, since exams ended, I’ve been hanging out a lot with my Franklin mates.
Franklin mates as in those staying on Franklin street.
It’s so sad that I’ll be leaving this place so soon and moving further away from my buddies =(
I’m gonna miss all the times we spent together this year.
The late night yumchas, the endless chats, the fact that everyone was so nearby.
Just a call away, a lift trip down, and a one minute walk across the street to Eddie & Leen’s gaming den.
You could do almost everything there.
Mahjong, poker, PS3, etc.
How awesome is that?

I’m just ranting on and on.
I guess all I wanna say is, I’ll miss you guys so much next year! =(
C’mon, move to St Kilda Road with me.
Sob sob…

My idea of a perfect world is one where there is no sickness, no pain.

Before exams, there was no time to blog.
Why?
Had to study.

During the exam period, needless to say.

After exams, still, there’s no time to blog.
Why?
It’s been party mode full on!
So many birthdays, there was the Grad Ball, and the many outings, and even a day trip to Mornington Peninsula!

So, for now, pictures!
As I’m too lazy for words.

Chermayn’s 21st Birthday Party @ PartyWorld

Jasmine and John’s 21st Birthday Party @ Element

Alison’s 21st Birthday Part @ Charlie’s and The Mills

Commerce Grad Ball @ Crown Palladium

Mornington Peninsula Day Trip

Ashcombe Maze

Red Hill Winery

Sunny Ridge Strawberry Farm. We even plucked our own strawberries!

Chapman’s Point

Some beach in Sorrento

New Quay International Buffet @ Docklands

Ah, such happy times.
The rest of the pics are on Facebook (0_0)

Exactly one year ago, I had just started my internship at EY.
Gone were the enjoyable days as a tax intern.
Miss those early morning coffee sessions with my favorite colleague ever, Lydia.
Miss those cab rides to the IRB with Lydia, chatting and gossiping all the way.
Miss waking up at 6 a.m. every morning, rushing out of the house by 6.30 a.m. to beat the jam, and driving to the bf’s place which is much nearer to office, and taking my precious one hour naps there.
Miss our lunch sessions where we always ate mixed rice at Mama’s Kitchen.

If I had known that I would miss it so much, I would have captured all those memories and stored them in a bottle.
I would’ve memorised those moments just like how I always tell myself to cherish those times when I’m happy.

Funny how I always live as though it were my last day on earth.
Songs and scents always remind me of various scenes I’ve been through.

“Angels brought me here” reminds me of the time when I was in Perth in year 2002, and we were in Eugene’s car, with the roof down, enjoying the breeze, driving along the freeway. Michelle and Eugene would joke and say they’d throw me out of the car if I didn’t sing along.

“Reflections of my life” reminds me of my parents’ best duet song. I love it when they sing this song. It’s really my favorite!

“My heart will go on” is mine and daddy’s favorite duet song. It’s also the song he’s always requesting for me to play on the piano.

“Before your love” was my favourite song in college and always brings back memories.

“Queen of my heart” brings back memories of high school.

There’s this particular perfume, I’m not sure what, whenever I smell it, I remember my teacher in kindergarten.
Funny how an insignificant scent could have such a significant place in my heart huh?

Red Door reminds me of when I was a child. It used to be Mum’s favorite perfume.
She has tonnes of perfumes, and yet she almost always used the same one.
Now, she’s into Ralph Lauren somehow.
Boo…

Dad is allergic to perfumes.
But the smell of Mopiko reminds me of him.
It’s this mosquito repellent he carries around everywhere.
He applies it whenever there’s an itch.
He’s totally addicted to it seriously.
Something tells me that he sometimes even eats it. Haha…
It’s super annoying ‘cos when I kiss him goodnight, I’d get the Mopiko in my mouth cos he even applies it on his face!

Acqua d’Gio is the bf’s scent and it only smells good on him =)

Ok, long irrelevant post here.
Happy holidays everyone!
<3

Darren Tan Jin-Fei is soooooooooo evilllllllllllllll!!!!

Laugh at me somemore la!

Laugh la laugh!

Hmmmmph!

Next time whack you harder!
And make sure “my Jie” whacks you too!

Today is Mayn’s big 21st!